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Friday, January 19, 2018

INTENTIONAL

Gloria Phifer

I am joining the bloggers at FMF...we write for 5 minutes on a  prompt word..today it is ...intentional.

What am I intentional about? What are the things that I put energy
and intentionality into? To be intentional requires effort on my part. Some initiative.

The first one that comes to my mind, Is The Lord. I care about our relationship...I intentionally spend time with Him. Talk to Him and read His Word. In order to do this I have to be intentional ...to take the time...to prioritize that relationship

I want to be intentional about my love to and for others. This means  to reach out and care. To let them know that I care about them...and how are they doing? What can I pray with them about? 

I need to be intentional with my husband...cook him some meals...make a home that he enjoys...let him know I love him.

I want to be intentional to my children, grandchildren and now...great grandchildren. I want to put myself out there for them. I want them to know I love them and that I am here for them.

These are the intentional things that come to mind in 5 minutes.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

ENOUGH...ONE THING I DO...

STEPPING FORWARD.
Gloria Phifer

Last week I wrote about something I was going through.

The enemy...the accuser of the brethren was telling me  I had not been enough in a season of my life.

One morning, I was watching Victoria Olsteen. She quoted the apostle Paul..."One thing I do...forgetting the past...I press on to the High Calling of Jesus Christ. " There was one thing Paul said he did. He forgot the past and pressed on.

Victoria also spoke about playing racket ball...you can never look backwards or the ball can hit you in the face.

This really spoke to my heart. I did the best I could in that season of my life. I loved and I cared. But, I cannot get stuck looking back, thinking maybe I wasn't enough. And truthfully, in my humanness I wasn't "enough." Only Jesus Christ is "Enough."

I must press forward in Christ to the calling He has on my life. 

Jesus Christ will always be "Enough!!!" I must fix my eyes on Him and not look back.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

HE NEVER LETS GO...

MY GOOD SHEPHERD...Painting by Gloria Phifer.
Gloria Phifer

I love my mom. She is in Heaven now and I am so thankful.

From abuse in childhood, many hurts and pains she turned 

to alcohol and drugs.

I became a Christian at 22...and I saw my mom, my step dad and my brother accept Christ.

My mom and step dad returned to the old life of alcohol and drugs, only this time it was 7 times worse. They became homeless.

There were times when I did not know where they were. (they lived in another state.)

The Lord would never let me quit praying for them. He would never let them go. He gave me scriptures on setting the captives free.

It was as if I was in this battle with The Lord. It was like an urgency in His love for them. He would never let them go.

A terrible happening seperated my mom and step dad. 7 yrs after that  happening, my step dad called me. he said he had not drank since that day. he wasn't sure if he would go to Heaven. We prayed together and I witnessed with him that He had accepted Jesus as His Savior. He died a few years later and is with The Lord.

My mother had a stroke. As I stood by her hospital bed, I heard her speaking the 23 Psalm and I prayed it with her. she told me she had many regrets. I told her , "Mom, Jesus has forgiven you...you need to forgive yourself."

After my mother went to be with The Lord I was in a deep sleep. Right before I woke up I saw Jesus and my mom. He had his arm around her and they were both smiling at me. My mom looked radiant.

I thank Jesus that He would never let her go. She was one of His sheep and He constantly went after her.

I thank The Lord that my mom and step dad are in Heaven with Him.

I can say assuredly that The Lord is The Good Shepherd...He will leave the 99 sheep and go after the one continually until He has brought them into His safe Haven. Blessed be The Name of The Lord Jesus Christ....our Good and Faithful, Loving Shepherd.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

SIMPLICITY

Gloria Phifer

Do you overthink things? I have been this week...I find myself looking back, wondering if I was good enough at being a mom?
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It meant alot to me to be a good mom. 

all my children are grown. They are doing really well.

A friend helped me today...to take the focus off myself and to look at my children.

She also reminded me there are no perfect parents. And she told me that I'm not Jesus, I'm not perfect. Wow!!! I do not have perfection and if I did there would be a source of pride. 

I realize too that it was the accuser of the brethren...accusing me. Trying to tell me I wasn't enough. 

I think it comes down to trusting. I've done my job. Now I trust in God...for great is the peace of my children for they are taught of The Lord...Isaiah.

Simplicity...Trust in The Lord for we are all His workmanship Created in Christ Jesus unto good works which He has ordained that we should walk in them. (Ephesians 2) Trust. take the focus off myself and onto Him. 

I joined the bloggers at FMF today...the word was "simplify."


Tuesday, December 5, 2017

YOU HAVE COME INTO THE KINGDOM

Gloria Phifer

I said to The Lord a couple of days ago that I want to live in a world without any hurt or pain. I also repeated this to him yesterday.

He reminded me that we are in this world facing and fighting sin and death. Not in our strength but in His Power and what He paid for at the cross.

Have you ever wondered or thought about...I was born in this generation. In this time of History. In a certain country. into a certain family.

I also told the Lord I would like to have been born in a family that really wanted  me. A stable home. A Christian home. I would have liked to live in one town and gone to one school system. 

The Lord reminded me of all the Power of God I have seen. I have experienced salvation, deliverance from fear. I have seen the captives of addiction set free. I have seen my family come to know Jesus. I know, because I have seen with my own eyes, that captives are set free through Christ Jesus.

I don't know where I would be if it had not been for The Lord. He brought me to revelation of Jesus as my Savior. He delivered me from fear. He gave me a family of my own. He gave me a wonderful relationship with Him.

Yes, the world is dark but The Kingdom of God is Light. When we know Jesus Christ we are lights in this world. We are ambassadors for Christ. We have the message of reconciliation. 

I was thinking of Queen Esther. She was rounded up with all the beauties of the land. She was snatched from her normal life and brought into a very dysfunctional environment. Her worst enemy of the Jews, while drinking with the king, made an edict to destroy the people of Israel. The King did not know Esther, who he had taken as his Queen, was Jewish. Esther, in this darkness of danger, had come to The Kingdom for such a time as this. She exposed Haman, the enemy, and saved her people from destruction.

What is our calling in this generation...at this time of history? 
The Lord has equipped us with authority and dominion. He has given us the keys of The Kingdom.  whatever we bind on earth is bond in Heaven and whatever we lose on earth is loosed in Heaven. You may wonder how that works. we can bind the enemy in his tactics through the blood, Name and authority of Jesus Christ. We can loose The Kingdom of God...which is righteousness, peace and joy. 

We have been given the ministry of reconciliation.  We are ambassadors for Christ in this world. we are lights in The Lord. We are the fragrance of Christ. When you enter a room or situation you bring Christ with you. 

Yes, we have been  born in and called to The Kingdom of God for such a time as this. remember who you are In Christ. The weapons and armor are found in Ephesians 6. You are a Warrior for The lord.

Sunday, December 3, 2017

NEARNESS

Gloria Phifer

What do you think of when you hear the word "near?"

I really have to contemplate what it means to be "near." You can be in proximity to someone and yet not be near. 

To me, "near" means when a person understands me and I understand them. I have a good friend who recently became a Christian. She loves her family but she longs to have that "nearness in Christ." The same heart set. 

I always longed to be near my mother, I had glimpses of it but then I felt the rejection the abandonment....I never felt she really knew me or my heart. So we were near and yet...far.

I have discovered there are different levels of being near. There are some people who only know me on the surface. I do not know them enough to have that trust to be fully vulnerable with who I am. And there are times I know totally they do not know who I really am. So there is the lack of nearness.

I believe everyone longs to be "near." The One that I draw near to is The Lord. He never rejects me. I feel that He understands my weaknesses and yet loves me unconditionally. Oh to be loved unconditionally. To know Someone Who will always love me for who I am. To me this is "Nearness." It is a sacred thing. And because it is such a personal, sacred thing...there must be trust to be vulnerable and that is only found where a person feels safe and secure. Only then will a person open their heart in order to be near.

THE PAIN OF LOSS

Gloria Phifer


It was so vivid...no I didn't want to go there...I didn't want to think 
about it...it hurt too much. For two days the memory surfaced.

The year was 1963, I had just finished cosmetology school. my mother, her boyfriend and my brother had picked me up in Albuquerque. We were heading to a job site for my mothers boyfriend. 

I had not been able to have my cat for a year, because I was renting a room from a family as I went to school.  I loved my cat. Throughout my childhood the only unconditional love I ever felt was from my cats.  He was a beautiful, half Siamese, shiny black.

Earlier, before cosmetology school, we had lived in Santa Rita, New Mexico. I would let my cat out and he always came back. This one night he didn't. I heard the screeching sounds of a cat fight. In my pajamas, I climbed over the back fence and separated my cat from the other cat. I picked him up and climbed back over the fence with him in my arms. He was shaking. He had lost one nail. I wrapped him in a large towel until he calmed down. No sir, no other cat was going to get the best of him...he had me!

He laid on my lap in the backseat of the car as we entered Colorado. When we got a motel room, I opened the door and let him out since he had ridden all day. I knew he would come back after he finished his business.  I had done this before and he always returned. 

He never returned. I was heartbroken as I called and searched for him. The next day we were to be on the road again. I couldn't leave without finding him. I was crying hysterically. 

I talked to the woman who owned the motel and she said she would keep an eye out for him. I sobbed in the backseat as we left that town.

When I called the motel, the lady said she never saw him. I had a deep sense of loss. 

I am now almost 74 years old...it has been over 54 years...but the vivid memory and the deep pain kept coming up for two days.

What happened to him? Why did I let him out of the motel? Why didn't I go with him? In those days, we never put a leash on our animals...if only I had had a leash.

I sat down and prayed. I cried like a child, as I told The Lord how much it hurt. Finally, knowing that I have a good Heavenly Father Who wants to heal my pain..."Lord, I know time and space are nothing to You. I pray Lord, that at that time and place that You took care of my cat. I release this to You believing, because of Your great love, that You did."

I felt the peace, the assurance. I knew The Lord had brought back the memory because He wanted to heal that wound in me.The wound of loss.

I laugh sometimes. When I get to Heaven and open my mansion door will all my wonderful animal friends come pouring out?

Lord, Thank You that You loved me and let me experience unconditional love from a cat that belonged to You. Amen.

Many times we have deep wounds that we don't want to revisit. It hurts too much. The Lord has done many inner healings in my life. It is like having a pain and then when You bring it to him...His healing pours in ...the memory is still there...but the hurt has left. 
If you have any losses, hurt, wounds bring them to Jesus, He is the Healer of the brokenhearted and He binds up wounds.You can talk to Him He cares and understands...He loves you just like He loves me.