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Friday, June 23, 2017


Gloria Phifer

I am joining the FMF bloggers. We write for five minutes on one word. The word this week is "Steady."


We have all heard the phrase "Steady does it." But sometimes "steady" is hard to find.

With ups and downs; the ebb and flow of life; to be steady or steadfast is hard to do. Especially on your own.

I have found in my own is hard to stay "steadfast" in a difficult circumstance.

My husband had a heart attack a year and a half ago. It was like standing on the outside and watching myself...I couldn't seem to get it together...let alone be "Steady or steadfast." I even told myself "Get it together Gloria!" 

When I left him at the hospital (they kept him over the weekend and he had a stint put in on Monday) I was crying, it was dark and it was raining..(.I don't see very good at night to drive anyway. I was praying and I knew friends were praying.)

 I was hard on myself...why wasn't I stronger? Why wasn't I steady. I was listening to the radio and a song came on "Just Be Held." I have listened to the song since then and I haven't heard these exact words...but that night, driving home in the dark rain, crying, I heard "You don't have to strong...just be held." 

I knew The Lord was with me and with my husband in this situation. He would take care of us. And He did. 

Jesus is my steadfastness. He is The One Who holds me together. My own strength fails but He always prevails. 

Thank You Jesus for always being there when we need You. You are our Steadfast Savior Amen.

Saturday, May 20, 2017


Gloria Phifer

I am joining the Friday the word is "Truth". We write for 5 minutes on one word.

I would say I love truth. 

But truth can also be convicting. At a time The Lord shows you why a person behaves the way they do and you realize you have judged them.

Or when The Lord shows something personal that is true...and even if it hurts...the truth sets you free. I had a friend, many years ago, call me and say, "Gloria, you can't be savior to your family." Well, I got on the defense. I said, "I wouldn't want to be their savior!!!"  But as we talked I said, "If I could save them, I would. If I could heal them I would." There was the truth. Only God, Jesus Christ, The Savior can save and heal. That truth, even though hard to hear, at first, was truth that set me free. My friend had spoken truth to me that I needed to hear.

Then there are the truths that set you free in different ways. Realizing your worth. How much God loves you. How much others love you. These are wonderful truths when they finally enter your heart. The truth that speaks louder than the lies. The Truth that speaks!!!

Jesus is The Way, The Truth and The Life. 

The Truth will set you free. If The Son of God sets you free, you are free indeed...this is Truth. 

Lord, give us ears to hear...The Truth. Amen.

Friday, May 12, 2017


Gloria Phifer

I always loved my Mom. But, even as a child, I felt something wasn't right. I was a very perceptive and sensitive child. I easily picked up on what was happening around me.

I always had the feeling my mother "needed" me. She told me God had given a commandment that I was to always honor her. All my life I tried to keep this commandment

My mother shared many things with me that I was much too young to know and obsorb that information.

When I was 10, she told me the shocking news that my step father was not my father. She had married my real father to get away from home when she was 16. At 17 (I found this out later in life) my grandmother and oldest aunt tried to talk her into aborting me.

My step father was accidentally electrocuted at his work as a line man. That was when things really changed with my mother and I.

My brother was my step fathers son. Now, I felt that she turned toward my brother. She told me that I reminded her of my  real father...who she said she never really loved.  

In my teenager years she told me I had ruined her body when I was born. When my grandmother said to my mom "you are going to ruin Gloria's life". My mother answered, in front of me, "Gloria has already ruined my life." 

As the years passed my mother became more abusive to me. Alcohol and drugs permeated her life. And affected ours.

We moved almost every year...I had no security. I was very afraid for different reasons.  Certain people who came into our lives. 

But, in all of this..."I loved my mother." I tried hard to please her.

She put me in charge of my brother, who was five years younger than me. She left me with him while she went to the bars. Many nights I didn't get to sleep until after 2:30 when she got home. I was fighting a lot of fear. 

Through the grace of God I met a young man from Iowa. God really did use him to rescue me. We married and through a long story...we ended up living in Iowa.

We had a baby girl. I wanted so much to be a good mother. I was fighting a lot of fear. I knew I needed God.

Through a series of events (and neighbors) I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. I was filled with The Holy Spirit.

It is a very long story, but my mother, brother, another step dad, Deryl, moved to Iowa and they all accepted Jesus.

I thought the battle was won!!! Now all would be well. I didn't understand that the battle took on different dimensions. I realized I couldn't talk to my mother...I was afraid of her and when I told her that she said, "If you mean you have to treat me with kid gloves, you're right." And she slammed the door and left. 

When you are a child, raised in dysfunction, you don't even realize or recognize abuse. you know there is something wrong but you have been told for so long it is your fault you believe it.  

Sadly, my mother and step dad moved back west and back into  alcohol and drugs. For 7 years they were homeless. 

I learned a lot about God's love. He continually laid them on my heart...He would not let them go. He told me He would set the captives free. 

They were set free, but it took a tragedy, brought on by drinking. Thank God they weren't killed. 

They separated. My step dad called me. he wasn't sure he would go to Heaven. He prayed with me and I witnessed with him that he had accepted Jesus as his Savior. he is now in Heaven.

Eventually, my mother sobered up. She had a stroke. laying on her hospital she said to me "I have many regrets." I said, "Mom, Jesus has forgiven you, you need to forgive yourself."

I was not there when my mother died, a few years later. I was sad I wasn't there. I felt guilt. 

One night, actually early morning, as I was sleeping, I saw my mother and Jesus smiling down on me. It was so real. The Lord said to me, "She has done many things but I will never bring them up to her."

I asked my friend, Michelle, "Why did He tell me that, I know that?"

Michelle said, "He wants you to know that your mother knows it now."

My husband asked me today if I miss my mom. I do miss hearing her voice on the phone. But, what I really feel is "relief and thankfulness." I know she is safe!!! I know she is with Jesus. And I know I will see her again. 

Yes, I love my mother

Friday, April 14, 2017


Gloria Phifer

I am joining the bloggers on FMF this morning...we write for 5 minutes on one word...the word today is "Empty."

Have you ever felt empty? Like something is missing? 

I have. I remember wondering, even as a child, what life was all about. 

As a teenager, always trying to fill that emptiness...that never satisfied feeling.... 

I had waited all week for a dance on Saturday night. Right in the middle of the dance I felt this incredible loneliness, even though I was surrounded by people...I was empty.

Now I know, it was The Lord "spotlighting" me. The loneliness and emptiness was for Him.

Sunday is Easter...the tomb is EMPTY!  HE IS RISEN!!!

Jesus went to the cross...paid for all of our sins so He could have a relationship with us. When we accept Him as our Savior He fills our hearts.

Because of Jesus my emptiness is filled and satisfied.

Sunday, April 2, 2017


Gloria Phifer

Dwelling Place.

The night was black. Lightning flashed and thunder sounded around me.

The wind blew violently. I shuttered within. 

I was lost in the storm.

wrapping my coat around me, I stumbled forward...

there was no path to follow.

A light flickered, advancing toward me.

My footsteps wandered on...forward to the only Hope.

the wind waged war against me, buffeting my way

The Light was coming closer and a pathway emerged before me.

I followed until I reached...

A dwelling made of Rock...

A Door opened and I entered.

The Door closed against all outside forces.

The Light shone so brightly there were no shadows...

I was enveloped in the warmth of The Light...held tenderly...

 I was safe in the Shelter of Love. Calmness and peace settled

over me. 

I was Home.

Jesus is my forever Home. He is my Shelter, my Dwelling Place,

my Refuge. My safety.

 Once I was lost, but now I am found.

Friday, March 24, 2017


Gloria Phifer

Today, I am joining the bloggers of FMF. We write 5 minutes on one it is "Embrace."

The word "embrace" conjures up thoughts of hugs,
and happiness.

 But in life there are many things and circumstances we do not want to, or do not know how to embrace.

I think one of my biggest challenges was to learn to love myself. To embrace who I am. 

It was the words I heard as I was growing up, and the actions that made me think negatively about who I was.

As I have written before, I asked Jesus in my life when I was 22. Some changes came right away.
But overcoming the lies ...sometimes the challenges are still there. Being able to comprehend the real truth of who I am.

One of the best things that happened was when The Lord told me I was born for Him. Born for My God. And He wanted me to study "Who I am In Christ." 

It was and is astonishing to me that God really "likes" me. That He created me to be "Me." 

I wasn't a mistake...He planned my life and He has a divine purpose for me.

Yes, I have been Embracing "life." I have been embracing that God loves me and I am still learning to love and embrace who he created me to be.

I want you to know that the negative thoughts you think about yourself are lies. The Bible says The Truth will set you free. 

You were not an accident. Read Psalm 139. Even in your mother's womb He saw you and loved you.
Embrace your God and embrace yourself.

"Jesus loves me this I know for The Bible tells me so." Embrace The Lord and Embrace the wonderful!!!

Wednesday, March 15, 2017


Gloria Phifer

Spoiler alert!!! If you haven't seen the movie and plan to, you may not want to read my critique. 

I read the book, "The Shack" a number of years ago, when it first came out. 

Now there is a movie. There seems to be a lot of controversy concerning the it scriptural? 

I went to the theater this afternoon. Since I had read the book, I understood the story line. 

It begins with a young boy whose father is a leader in the church; but a violent alcoholic who beats his wife and his son. I am sure this brings up in the boy's mind...if my father is like this...what is God like? If I can't trust my can I trust God?

He marries and has a lovely family. On a camping trip a tragedy happens. 

He is not able to help his family because of his own grief, anger and guilt of not being able to stop what happened. 

His wife calls God "Papa." 

One day, while snow blowing, he finds a note in his mail box. There are no footprints in the snow.

The note asks him to come to the shack and meet "Papa."

The shack is where this terrible thing happened. It is the last place on earth that he wants to go.

As he drives to his destination a truck barely misses him.

Reluctantly, he goes to the shack. It is dirty...disgusting...he hates it. he hates the person who caused the tragedy.He has a pistol. Thinking the man who caused the tragedy will show up.
  As he walks back up the trail...a young Jewish man is walking through the woods and tells the man to follow Him.

The trail becomes beautiful...into spring instead of winter.
(he has been in a winter in his take).

As he returns to the is transformed into a lovely home in the woods. He follows the young Jewish man into 'the shack." A black woman greets him, as if she knows him personally, and is so happy to see him.

There is another woman ( portrayed as a Asian woman). Her name means "Wind." 

(There is a lot of controversy of God being portrayed as a black woman. My take on it was, he did not trust his father and he wasn't ready to see God, The Father, as Papa.)

The man asks the black woman many hard questions. Where was God when the tragedy happened? Why wasn't it prevented?

She says he really doesn't know her. he is seeing her through his pain. (he is seeing God through his pain and he is angry at God.)

When she reaches out to him there is a nail scar in her wrist.  

(God was in Christ reconciling the world unto Himself.)

The Asian woman (who is portrayed as The Holy Spirit) leads the man into a garden that is a mess... it is wild and beautiful. She begins working on the garden and he helps her in digging. he finds a "bitter root." ( my take...he has a bitter root within him that needs healed.) She then she tells him that the garden is him...his life. 

When the man is with the Jewish man...the man says to him, "I feel more comfortable with you." (This Jewish man also has scars in his wrists. )
 The Jewish man tells him he will meet him at the lake, that he can take the canoe out if he wants to.  The boat begins to rock...the water turns black...the boat is splitting apart and the dark water is coming in. The Jewish man appears on the water..."This  is not is what is inside of you. Turn your eyes on Me away from the boat. " When the man looks at The Jewish Man the boat is fine. (My take...his own life is falling apart because of the dark pain he is destroying him...He must look to Jesus to be saved.)

One great part is when the Jewish man and he runs across the water together. 

The Jewish man takes him to a path that goes upward and tells him to keep on going. the man climbs up and pushes against the stone and the wall of stone opens into a dark room. There is one light shining on a woman on a throne. She says, she is wisdom. They talk about judgment...she asks him if he wants to be the judge and yes, he wants to. He sees flashes of a little boy being abused. The man says, "I can't judge him, he is a child." Wisdom says to him, "That child is your father." His two children stand before him and wisdom tells him of their faults and asks him to judge them...The man says no "take me in their place."  (Jesus gave Himself on the cross for us and took our judgement.)

There is a waterfall. He looks out and sees his little girl who has died (the tragedy). she is playing with other children and with The Jewish Man. She runs toward him. He puts his hands to his heart. She is alive...she is happy...she knows he is there...she throws him a kiss. He is assured that she is more than alright.

His heart is softening. he is crying more. 

There is a scene where he forgives his dad.

He wakes up the next morning. Papa is no longer a black woman, Papa is a man.(My take on this is, now that he has forgiven his dad he is ready to see God as "Papa" his Heavenly Father.

   Papa is going to take him to the hardest place.
That place is "forgiveness." he must forgive the man who killed his daughter (the tragedy). Papa says he will help him. The man must begin by saying he forgives. he finally gets the words out. Papa says he may have to say it 1,000 times before he feels it.

They go up into the mountain, where they find the body of his daughter hidden in some rocks. Papa helps him wrap her in linen. there is a burial service with all of them there...she is buried in the garden (the garden of his heart). The Asian woman, who has been collecting the man's tears...anoints the grave with oil and then with his tears and flowers bloom. Shooting up from the ground is a tree, which grows and spreads out before them. (My take is the tree of life grew in his garden.) he has had closure.

Now he is told he can stay with them or he can return to his family. He is also told that he is very valuable; everything he does affects others. 

he decides to go back to his family. He enters the car...begins driving and the truck (from before) slams into his vehicle.

He awakens in the hospital...his friend tells the man he never made it to the shack...he has been in the hospital the whole time. 

He ends up ministering to his family. He believes in God and trusts God.

It is an interesting film...Have to remember it is a allegory. 

There is a Trinity. God The Father, God The Son and God The Holy Spirit. God so loved the world that He gave His Only Begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. God wants a relationship with each one of us. Jesus is The Way, The Truth and The Life no one comes to The Father except through Him.

God is a God of judgement. The Bible talks about His wrath against evil. Jesus took God's wrath and judgment on Himself when He died on the cross...our judgement. When we accept Jesus as our Savior we are saved from wrath and judgment. Isaiah 52 and 53.